At 7:45 tonight my phone rang. Now anybody who knows me, knows that I usually head to bed by 8:00 and then read for about a half hour and then crash for the night. So I answer the phone. It is my mother. She is telling me that my sister in law is in the hospital. I ask what happened and she says she doesn't really know. Well, she is in the hospital for a reason, why? She tells me that she had sort of a seizure. What the hell is sort of a seizure??? I ask what she means by that. She passed out, mom knows that for sure. And she is extremely dehydrated. I know that dehydration alone can cause you to pass out. I ask when did this happen, she says Oh we didn't find out until this afternoon. (I talked to mom this afternoon on the phone and nothing was said then about it) Guess it was after that. Then she says, and this is the kicker, "We (meaning her, my sister & brother in law) went down to see her and she doesn't look good at all" HELLO! Did anybody think that I might want to go with you?
This is the treatment I get from my in laws. I expect it from them. But I thought it would not happen with my own family. Although . . . what on earth would give me the idea that things would be different. They never have been.
Mom gets sick and she calls my sister in law. When my brother & sister in law got married I was not even invited to the wedding. My folks went, my sister & her husband went, but I didn't go.
Sometimes I feel like it would be so easy to walk away from them all. Would anyone notice. Seven years ago I basically cut my mother out of my life and she never noticed. Maybe I embarrass them and it just makes life easier if I am not in the picture.
If I am a second thought, DON'T think of me at all!
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Well I have only one thing to say... You are NOT an embarrassment!! If anything you are better than any of them will ever be. You have done so much with so little. I know your lifes has hard and I know they haven't treated you the way they should have.
ReplyDeleteYou are amazing women who has many talents. I have always looked up to you. I wanted to be a mother just like you. I remember laying in bed and you would read me a books. I love to hear you read. I also think you have so much potiental as a writer. You are the reason I have become who I am. I couldn't have done anything without you. I love you!!