5/8/12

Maybe I'm just a terrible person, but for the mostpart I can't stand people.  They are just plain stupid.  Like the moron who is first in line at a stop light, the light turns green and they just sit there.  If you are too distracted or plain old stupid to know that you need to proceed on a green light, maybe you should not be driving.  

Then there is the person that lets little Jimmy or Nancy run wild in the grocery store.  All you hear is "Jimmy don't touch"  "Jimmy come back with mommy."  "Jimmy leave that alone."  Put little Jimmy's little butt in the cart.  Problem solved.  Oh I forgot, you don't have to have a brain to reproduce.  You can tell that by the quality of parents we have in the world today. 

I do not think you should beat a child, but a hand applied to the backside (at times) is a good idea.

We went to a dinner theatre over the weekend.  It was a sold out show.  And everyone was pushing and shoving to get seated.  I wanted to yell "Everybody, Relax!  You have assigned seats.  You will have the same seat if you are seated now or in 10 minutes!"  But I just tried to wait patiently.  And if you know me, you  know it is not easy for me to be patient.

Yesterday was my 23rd anniversary.  Where has the time gone?  Somebody once said that life is like a roll of toilet paper, the closer you get to the end, the faster it goes.  That is so true.  I am 57.  The way I looks right now I will be 65 (or older) before I get to retire.  Will I be able to do all the things I want to do when that time comes? 

I am so jealous of others I know who have been able to retire early.  Do they know how good they have it?  Do they know when they make the jokes they think are cute how it makes me want to punch them in the face?  When they call me in the middle the day at work and say "What are you doing?"  I respond "working" and they they say "Well, I guess somebody has to.  he-he-he"  What keeps me from just hanging up.  I know they think it is a joke and they are being funny.  I don't see the humor.

I'm just being nasty today I guess.   Maybe tomorrow will be better.

In early February I was watching Dr. Oz.  He had a product on his show made with raspberry ketones and it was suposed to just melt the fat away (along with diet and exercise of course)  Anyway, the show made this product sound like it was a dream come true.  I searched all over Kansas City for this stuff.  I was willing to pay any price to get it. In my mind,  Itold myself "If I can find this I'm going to buy it because I would do ANYTHING to get this weight off."   Then I stopped. 

Seriously?  Anything.  You LIE!  You wouldn't do anything.  Because if you would, you would get out your Weight Watcher information, read it, and get back on program.  You know it works.  So why don't you save your money and just put the program to work for you.

So I did.  I got back on plan and started eating my assigned points and the first week I walked a mile each time for 3 times.  That first week I lost 3.6 pounds.  The next week I lost 4 pounds.  The next week I lost 2 and last week I lost 3. 

Each week I keep track of what I am eating.  I stay in my points and I work out at least 3 times a week.  I try for more, but 3 is my goal.  I am so excited about what has been going on.  Can I keep it up?  Can I make it to goal this time?

Now, here is the issue, this is my birthday week.  I want so back to stay on track.  Not only is my birthday on Tusday, but we leave Thursday for TOPS convention in St Louis.  I know if I get my mind made up to stay on track I will.  I will take this one day at a time.   I will not deprive my self of anything, but I will be careful. 

Wish me luck.

3/14/12

My life is a mess. My family is a mess and my home is a mess. 1st question: What can I fix? My home for sure. My life somewhat. My family . . . not at all. The answer ? This weekend I am going to do some serious cleaning on my home. Put away, give away or throw away. I need to do this to keep my sanity. If I get my home in order, maybe my life will seem a little better.

Always Family

I wanted an always family,
For all the days of the year.
In good times and bad times
they will forever be near.

I wanted an always family,
to fill my days and nights.
To love me and protect me,
when things aren't going right.

I will in turn be there for them,
when ever they happen to call.
To help them work through problems
no matter how big or small.

I did my part, and I showed up.
I was at their beck and call.
Dried their tears, soothed their fears,
Winter, spring summer and fall.

I got a "sometime" family,
enjoying a life so free.
No one had time to come back home,
when the person in need was me.

You made your choice to live your life,
In a way that's good for you.
Farewell to my sometime family
I've made some choices too.

2/9/12