1/24/2010 Week 1

Here we are. One week down and my whole life to go. I weighed in yestrday and am down 3.4 pounds. I am very encouraged. Just another 6.6 and I post a picture. I worked the program and the program worked. I weighed and measured my food and wrote down everyting I ate.

Next step . . . Exercise. I am still having issues with my left knee. I need to get some Aleve. I will put that on my list to get done after work tomorrow. I need more hours in my day.

This week I am going to try a new receipe. I'm not sure which one yet, but I have decided it needs to be something that I felt like I had to give it up. I need to learn that I can have what I want. Portion control.

I wrote a poem and I want to share it with you.

REMORSE

I wanted some pizza,
I wanted some cake.
Why didn't I see,
It was such a mistake?

Just one little nibble,
Just one little taste.
Goes straight to my butt,
and straight to my waist.

And as I devoured
came the words of my mother
"One little bite
just leads to another."

I should have just slapped
my hands from my mouth
I should have walked north
I should have walked south.

I ate every bite
not a single crum lingered
and when I was finished
I licked all my fingers.

And when it's all over,
It's quite true of cours
Here I sit dealing
with eaters remorse.

(Feel free to share my poem, but please put my name on it. I should get the credit.)
Bye-Bye!

The Beginning

This is my beginning. Not of my life, but the beginning of my blog. I never really thought about doing something like this, but last year we went to see the movie "Julie & Julia" (which I loved) and I thought "what a cool idea"! I love to write and I also love to cook . . . I can do this. However, I will not just be talking about cooking. I plan to talk about everything . . . and then just send it out into space. What a concept.


Maybe nobody else will ever read this, but I still plan to write it. I'm not real good about completing things. I started writing a book several years ago and I don't know if I will ever finish it.

I have titled this "Becoming". I want to become the person I see in my heart and not the one I see in the mirror. I might as well state up front, I'm fat. I know fat is not politically correct, but it is the truth. In fact I have been fat all my life. Except when I was 12 I had a growth spurt and for about a year I looked pretty good and when I was 15 I went to Weight Watchers for the first time and lost 60 pounds and looked pretty decent until after I graduated from high school, but other than that I have been fat all my life.


I plan to change this and I plan to chart these changes in my blog. I am attending Weight Watchers at this time and I believe in the program. I know the program will work, if I work the program. I also plan to tell when I fall off the wagon, so please be kind and don't judge me too harshly. And if I read your blog I won't judge you either.

I have been "playing" with this life style change for over 2 years. I have lost and gained the same few pounds so often that we are on a first name basis. {Good bye, Mike & Stan, the last 2 pounds I lost. Hello again Mike & Stan. Oh I see you just jumped right on my hiney. Why there is Sue and May, strapped to my thighs. If you have ever struggled with your weight at all you know exactly what I'm talking about!}

I attend the 6:30 Saturday morning meeting. I was on a steady gain pattern from Halloween to New Years. I have lost the past two weeks in a row and this morning I looked at my weigh-in book and my loss/gain box says "0.0". So for all intent and purposes I am exactly where I was when I originally started. Now, I could get discouraged, but for some reason I saw this an an omen. A sign. It's like I'm a new member all over again. All the stars have aligned and I have the opportunity to start over. After all, it's a new year and I once again am officially at 0.0. I am encouraged. This is MY year. I can and will do this.

I also attend TOPS meetings on Thursday evenings. That stands for Take Off Pounds Sensibly. This is a support group and I have been going there for over 12 years. I go there with my husband. He lost over 40 pounds and has kept it off for almost 12 years. I'm so proud of him. And I love the people in my group, but I need more. That is the reason I go to Weight Watchers also.

I plan to post a new picture with every 10 pounds lost. Gee I bet you are really looking forward to that. And I will tell you every time I hit a goal. I have a whole list of them.

I just have the feeling that this is going to be a very exciting year. A year of change. A year of possibilities. I have a plan and I CAN!